I think I've finally figured out what I want. After 32 years, I think I've got it. It's not the easiest thing to verbalize, because it's more complicated than just, "I want a piece of chocolate cake." But even if I can't entirely explain it, I think I finally know.
And apparently, I'm not the only one who knows what I mean.
I want someone who feels like this:
And even The Band Perry kind of gets it in the chorus of their song "All Your Life":
Well I don't want the whole world
The sun, the moon, and all their light
I just want to be the only girl
You love all your life
The sun, the moon, and all their light
I just want to be the only girl
You love all your life
That's what I want. I want someone who will love me for who I really am, not who he wants me to be. I've tried to be everything that someone wants, and being up on a pedestal sucks. It's a long way down, from the ideal to the reality. I'm a real person, and I've got a nice big boatload of flaws. Please don't expect perfection. It's hard enough for me to handle my own perfectionist qualities. I don't need someone else adding to it.
I want someone who has a life of his own and wants me to be a part of it, but not all of it. I don't want to be someone's 'everything.' I've been that, and it's too much pressure. I want him to be happy on his own, but I want to be able to make him happier. I want him to be a whole person, not just 'my other half,' and I want him to feel the same towards me.
So there you go. That's what I want.
Now if I could just find it...
1 comment:
That's so funny.... I was going to be flip and say let me know if that works for you. But the thing of it is, if you do find someone like that, you just have to go with it and when you realize it, well, it's too late to talk about because life has happened. Guess I'm not making much sense, but I did the first option too. Tried too hard to make that work. Now I'm just living and enjoying the moments when things work, working on them when they don't, and living, loving, life.
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