Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Self-indulgent ranting

I know that, once you start using your blog to rant about personal things, people start losing interest. I really don't want my blog to degenerate into an angst-filled emotional blowout.


Occasionally, one must publicize one's feelings about a negative experience in order to feel a form of catharsis. Therefore, I would just like to put it out there that I have been screwed. I have been totally shafted. I found out today just how much I was shafted, and I'm really unhappy about it. I've been questioning the decision that was made since the day I found out, wondering what I did wrong to be excluded, and now I really have no idea why the powers that be chose not to choose me. I hate this feeling, like maybe I'm not as good as I thought I was, like I must have really screwed up.

And yet, here I am, sacrificing my time and energy for the people who screwed me over. Am I a glutton for punishment? Maybe I'm a little bit masochistic...

In any case, I hope this self-indulgent rant has been bland enough that it has not scared you away from my blog permanently. Tomorrow, we will return to our regularly scheduled entertainment. Thanks for reading!


KarenElizabeth said...

Hey - every once in awhile we have Debbie Downer days. It's okay to be like that. I miss you lots. Can you please call me sometime soon??

colbymarshall said...

a.) I think this rant is totally called for b.) I totally get where you're coming from and c.) it didn'd ruin your blog forever. See you tomorrow, and try not to over analyze, even though I am SOOOO not one to be talking. But feel free to overanalyze to me anytime, because we can do so together!